things weren't right today. it was like..during recess, i was with cheryn instead of sin yee. and then ah..the cheryn so disgusting!! while i was queing up to buy food right, cheryn went to rub her leg against mine!! haha..so super disgusting. and then during MT, ayunni wrote me a letter saying if i was having fun stealing people's frenz away. i mean..WHAT THE HELL WAS SHE TALKING ABOUT?? haha. it's not like as if i would do something like that. would i? she thinks that during PE, last friaday, i took ernesta away from her! i mean..wouldn't you do the same thing if someone were to READ your PRIVATE AND CONFIDENTIAL letter? who wouldn't freak out? i tell you ah..ayunni is one bloody b****. she only cares about herself. i tried to snatch the letter away from her but she just wouldn't give it to me. she insisted that she read it. who on earth would be so inconsiderate to read someone else's PRIVATE AND CONFIDENTIAL letter?! i know who..AYUNNI. i hate her like hell lah. i bought her something as my way of saying sorry but i din give it to her becoz i din think she would accept it. i wrote that to her in the letter. and then you know what her reply was? im sorry..but i DUN accept anything from STRANGERS. haiz..no wonder she doesn't have ANY frenz. so rude. serves her right. oh ya..guess what? I PASSED MY MALAY CA!!! -praises the lord- i never thought i would pass. and the paper was so difficult! haha. it's just very unbelievable. anyway, pinky, abigail and farah tan came over today. had to do the slide show for EP project. so fun!! alighted the bus and went to 7 eleven cuz abigail wanted to buy mashed potatoes. then we went to my house. after that, farah tan was hungry so, gave some indian bread with curry. there was extra anyway. so ya..while she ate, pinky abigail and i started on the project first. it was like..we had to RE-DO everything lah! haha. but it was so fun!! dunno why oso..haha. then after we finshed most of the slide show, farah and abigail went to play with the cats. so i was gonna check my mail when farah said that she wanted me to help her change her blogskin and wanted to have music for her blog. so i helped her and then she said something like 'thank you lizard!! i love you!! haha..'. so malu i tell you. thank goodness only my dad was at home. well..my sis and my bros were home too but they were all sleeping. haha. lazy bums. so at 3.30, then only they left the house. pinky wanted to buy mashed potatoes too so we followed her to 7 eleven. then sfter that bie bie wanted us to wait with her until the next bus came. so we waited and waited for like 10 minutes until, finally, her bus came. then i followed pinky and farah tan to the other bus stop and they missed their 56 bus so i waited with them until the next vuz came. so long you know?! 20 minutes!! haha..anyway. we had a nice loooooooooooooong chat. and then farah was saying some 'mooda fook'. haha. dunno what that is oso lah. so ya. pretty exciting day lah ha? k..gotta go and get the teachers' presents ready.

things are getting WORSE. first, ayunni thinks that i'm talking about her in a bad way. but i was't. she misread the letter. what am i suppose to do now? wait for her reply. i sent her an email saying that i'm sorry for every bad thing i've done. hopefully she will forgive me and sin yee. i can't just leave her out like that. after all she's done for me, i just can't. at this point of time..i dun know if i have a TRUE friend. everything's going wrong. why does it have to be ME? why can't i just live like a normal girl and have a simple life? i've got so many problems. to tell ya'll the truth..secondary life just sux BIG time. anyway..went for the dancesmania. haha. it was just great! the one i liked most was the upper sec yellow house group. so cute! clarabelle was in the group! haha. the way she danced ah..very terok mann. but ah..i think most of the judges gave her group full marks! cool right? ya..i think all the other houses did great too. red house won for the lower sec. i think Ayunni did pretty well. i mean..she smiled and did all her moves properly. it was great. she looked funky too. the moves were great and all that. at this point of time..life sux. i told you that already right? haha. yeah..hopefully things will get BETTER. HOPEFULLY. all i can do now is pray hard and hope that everything will be find after the weekend. -prays hard-

i thought i could trust her. i THOUGHT. guess i can't. she's trying to take away my best friend. trying to make me feel miserable. guess what? i hate u, u bloody bastard!! i though she was gonna sit next to me during assembly, but you took her away from me. i tried to grab her back..but NO. you just dun get it. all you can do is make people feel miserable. it that all you can do? eversince i met you, i though i could trust YOU. guess im wrong. you betrayed me. you're trying to make my life like HELL. i just can't think properly now. it's all YOUR fault. if i fail..it's YOUr fault. if i commit suicide..it's YOUR fault. i don't care anymore. i have to consult my TRUE friends on what to do. friends from ANOTHER class. i dun have any true friends in this disgusting class!! even if i have any..it's only a few. now let me tell you this, jerk. you'd better stay away from me and stay OUT of my life! i am so disgusted that im in this stinking class with YOU! i even have to consult my SENIORS! you know how embarrassing that is?!?! im gonna end my life right NOW. -jumps down 25 story building-

replies for taggies +juSti//: haha. thanks jie!! dunno if i have loads of frens though..i'll try and call ya k? or i'll write you a letter. okie dokie?? melissa: got ur URL from sin yee's blog. haha. u dun mind rite?? and err..how did u know bout the prefect thingy?? to tell ya the truth, i seriously dun wanna be one. sInyEe: i'll tell you in school ok? you take care too ok? ryn*lil foot: i see..haha. it's okayy. i HATE my place too. juz sux lah. j*eanette: haha. nope. no one's bullying me lah. juz been having tough times in school. complicated lah. haha. sure..err. i guess i can email you. u sure u dun mind? and err..haha. i dun think i can get first in class. haha. im like so lousy lah! anyway..see you soon ok?? study hard too!! miss ya loads!

had our maths CA today. it was ok..i guess. should be able to pass lah. although my mum would be expecting me not to get just a pass. she'd probably want me to get higher. how much higher can i get?? anyway, last monday during assembly, we had to nominate prefects for next year in our classes. pearl had 36 out of 38 votes!! haha. cool right? ya..and then. err. sin yee got 30 i think. haha. not sure. and JOJO got nominated too. haha. really cool. i kena nominated too. haha. but i DON'T want to be a prefect. cuz then i have to wear my socks so high up and my belt has to be tight. haha. got 9 votes. like omg lah. i thought i wouldn't get nominated at all. i guess i COULd give it a try. but i dun think im gonna be able to cope with my studies. haha. having tons of problems now days. i though i could trust her. but she betrayed me. she's USING me. i dunno if i can take it anymore. it's just too stressful for me. to add to that, the exams are coming soon and i just can't concentrate. it's really difficult you know?? i have my own problems at home too but NO! you just dun get it do you? all you can do is create more problems for me. THAT'S ALL YOU CAN DO FOR ME!! if i ever commit suicide, dun blame me. blame her. she wants me to get white hair and not do well for my exams. that's what i think of you. you're insensitive to others' feelings. you're irritating. you're a BIG fat betrayer and i hate you!! i dunno if i can forgive you at all. after all you've done for ME! even if you die for me, i still won't forgive you. that's how much i hate you. there's nothing you can do for me. except to..STAY AWAY FROM ME!!

oh mann. haven been updating for a looooooooooooong time! haha. well, things in school just haven't been right these few days. been having alot of problems. long story. u know..it some how feels good that the competition is over. but training these days are really weird. we had to do some latin dance thingy. in the end, it was a dance with a lot of butt shaking. to add to that, the primary 1 kids from MCS were there! haha. so malu! then they were staring at us. probably thinking 'what in the world are they doing?'. haha. but, i think i had fun. i know erica had fun. she was smiling all the way! haha. she smiles like everyday. haha. yeah. then last Saturday, had to do CIP again. went to wheelock. tons of people there. haha. it was the salvation army. then we had to carry some red bag. haiz. so i was with jessica, gabby, angie and alicia. started to sell the flags. haha. then one man said that the stickers were very lousy cuz they woudn't stick properly. then we decided to go to Novena. waited near the Church. business was pretty good there. most of the old people donated. then someone said to Jessica that we were satruday morning beggers!! so insulting! but, there was one old lady who was very sweet. she said 'donate to you so that all of you can go back early'. so sweet right? yeah. God bless her! haha. later, business got worse so we decided to go to united square. haha. it was even WORSe there! it was practically empty. so pathetic right? haha. okayy..went back to orchard after that. my bag wasn't even half full. alicia's was like more than half filled! how did she do it? i duuno. so many things to say..but i dunno how to start! right. gotta have dinner now. good luck for the upcoming exams people! and good luck to all my sec 4 seniors doing their prelims! haha. love ya'll!! -muacks-!!