won't be posting until the exams are over cuz i have to study and all that so yeah. these are my last words before i stop blogging for awhile. good luck and all the best for the exams people! luv ya'll loads! -muacks-

well..can't sleep now cuz my brother's frens are all here celebrating his birthday. haha. quite fun actually. but it's like damn noisy mann. super noisy in fact. haiz..what to do?? teenagers what. they always make a lot of noise. haha. no offence lah but it's true. they keep on laughing and shouting and all that. and im like super bored now. there is absolutely NOTHING to do. anyway..gotta go. have to entertain them. haha. see ya!

yay!! things are back to normal again. so glad. and im in the piggy family!! haha..i've gone mad. im just really [x100] happy that we aren't fighting anymore. -BIG smile- it's been a really long ride and now, it's stopped. YES!! dun know how it happened actually. gave the bookmark thing and next thing i know, she said sorry in front of my face. felt so sorry for her at that time. use to be me making the first move..guess it was her turn this time. aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!!!!! i can't help it. sorry if i go really really mad. im just so relieved. now i can finally concentrate on my studies. no more fights from now on...i promise. im ssooooooooooooooooooooo happy!!! right..sorry peeps. i think that's all i have to say for today. oh ya..cheryn ah..thanks for helping me patch up with farah. luv ya! sometimes you just donch know the ones who really care for you. =)) oh ya..and happy birthday kor!! love you loads!

school totally sucked today. during ME period..farah tan cried. i was thinking that she was crying becoz i was in the piggy family but turned out it wasnt. she was crying becoz she said that i told everyone NOT to talk to her. that's not true! i wouldn't do such a thing like that. besides..i wrote her a letter saying that i was sorry for all the things that i had done to her. what else does she want me to do? treat her like a queen?! i have definitely changed my attitude towards her. it's whether she wants to do the same to me. to add on to that..shi ming and belnice they all are angry with sin changyee. i really donch know what the hell is going on but i just wish that things would change. oh yes..and cheryn..im sorry i did the thing. i din mean to hurt your feelings. it's just that..i thought u din want me in the pig family thing. im sorry..i want things to get better. i dun want the whole class to be fighting over small things like this. why can't all of us just live like one happy family? !@#$! this just really sux. farah tan..if u really dun want me to be in the pig family thing..then just say so. i dun want to be in the thing if your not willing to talk to me. can we just be frens again? it's really horrible when frens get into fights. that's not what i wanted when i got into this class. i was thinking that my class would be happy with each other. i guess i was wrong. in order to do that..we need to work as a class. which is thingnot what we are doing right now. why does it have to be like this? why do all the bad things happen to ME? i guess i deserve it in a way. but it's like..haiz..I JUST DON'T KNOW ANYMORE!! i just can't stay in this class if there is gonna be a war. it's horrible. if your readin this..i'd just like to say that i'm truly sorry ok?

sorry sin..din mean what i said. now i know the reason it's ok lah. anyway, farah tan is sucking up to tons of people. the some people have fallen into her trap and are now frens with her. how stupid. i hate her for nuts. right. shall not talk about her anymore. actually..that's all i have to say. haha. no lah. have a NEW group of frens now. they consist of sam, shi ming, belnice, sin yee, ernesta, asyikin, xin yi and ME!! so many right? i know. haha. really hope that i will be able to trust them. for once im in a ''gang''. haha. it's gonna be lots of fun with them! wheeeeeeeeeeee!! then we have to take neoprint and watch movies together and do everything together!! yay!! oh ya. an during PE today..we played netball. then after that, i was in HER team. damn suay mann. and then err..oh ya. i crashed into xin yi and her knee hit really hard against my knee. then after that my knee was like damn pain mann. so i decided to skip training otherwise my knee'll hurt like nuts. so ya. can't really walk properly now. haiz..what to do? stay home and rest. cannot even go out to the park. damn. ok..have to go. take care people!!

i really cannot take it anymore. that's all i can write about. my problems. today..suppose to go for recess with sin yee. in the end. farah tan went with her. u know how heart broken i was?? it was really damn painful. i cannot stand farah tan anymore. she's a bloody bitch. a f***er. bloody ass hole and a sucker. i dun see how anyone can be frens with her. every single day of my life just sux BIG time. i dun have any TRUE frens anymore. during science today, wanted to go down to the pond with sin yee. so when i saw her at the pond, she was with farah tan. there i was..so damn disappointed with her. the only person i can blame now is farah tan. she's trying to take MY best fren away from me so that i can feel miserable. guess her plan is working. all i want to do now is commit suicide. you know how many friendship problems i have had this year?! it's really hard to cope with. worst of all..it's gonna affect my grades. this really sux. i dun even know if i can trust sin yee. she says that she hates farah and she still hangs out with her. wth lah! my heart is like really damn pain and how i feel now is really damn sad. no one cares about my feelings whenever they do something that hurts me a lot. no one cares about my feelings. only some people. but they are none of my JIES. i thought that i had jies to talk to me whenver i feel down. guess i dun have anymore. they just dun care about me anymore. maybe they do, but they just don't know. i hate farah tan like SHIT. all she can do is make me jealous and suffer. all she can do is hurt my feelings. that's all she can do. im crying right now. that's how hurt im feeling. cuz no one in this world cares about me and my feelings. so now its up to sin yee whether she wants to break this friendship. i dunno how much longer i can tahan already. it's really up to fate. i have to pray hard. i can't just let her go away from me. but it's wheher she will let go of me. whether she still wants me as a best fren or farah tan as her best fren. cuz it seems now that she hangs out with farah tan more than me. fine then. i dun give a damn anymore. i might as well not have any frens at all. i might as well be the odd one out in class. a girl who doesn't have a true fren at all.

i din enjoy the chalet stay at all. it was terrible. at least some people are back together again. haha. but sin yee and i are not. i have no idea whar's going through her head. she says that she doesn't like farah. what happens in the end? she talks to her for the rest of the night. she wants to talk to me in private..but farah has to interrupt. so at this point of time..i don't have any true friends. in this class at least. maybe just a few..but some people just really suck the hell out of me. they irritate me like hell. i might as well just go to hell. at night..couldn't sleep cuz they were making a hell lot of noise. fine. then in the morning, i want to take a nap, she sings 'somebody sux in this world la la la la la la!'. bloody hell lah. couldn't even close my eyes for 5 minutes!! if we are ever gonna hold a chalet..im not coming. cuz i have no one to talk to. not even my best fren cared. guess she thinks im not her best fren anymore. im ok with that. i dun even care if i dun have any best frens in this damn class. no one cares about me anyway. only some of my jies. but not all. if i do get really pissed off..i might just end this friendship. if farah is reading this..o would like her to read this. if you really want sin yee to be your best fren..then just say so. i dun want to have any enemies in this class you know? but i have no choice. cuz your attitude just really sux like shit. stay out of my sight and NEVER talk to me again.

for ONCE, im NOT gonna write about HER. donch care what the hell she wants and all that. shall concentrate on the happy days i had in my life. haha. oh yeah!! can't wait until tomorrow!! got the class chalet! YES!! been waiting for that day since Ms Ho told us. though im not exactly excited lah. donch even know how im suppose to feel mann. at least Ms Ho gave us a second chance. not all teachers are like that. so i AM greatful that she is our teacher. although i donch think that her teaching is good..i think she has the patience to tolerate us. she CAN be pretty fun during lessons lah but not all them time. when she's angry..donch play play mann. she is damn strict lor. speaking about her..got my results back for lit, history and english. passed noth my lit and english but not history. i failed by a lot lor. haven told my mum yet. she is so gonna kill me. i donch have anything else to say. haha. guess i'll end off here. gonna pack my bag for the chaler now. hehe. can't wait!! well..for the haunted house anyway. haha. it's gonna bee so much fun! oh..and cheryn is gonna be partnering HER!! haa..pity cheryn mann. good luck ok jie?! you're gonna need it. haha. -evil smile-

she's using my best fren and me. i can tell. the moment she is left out..she goes to sin yee. when she has 'frenz' again..it's like sin yee is invisable.but why? are you taking advantage of her? no wonder you DUN have any true frenz. cuz you always make use of them. if this continues..let me tell you. ur gonna be hated for the rest of your life. your not gonna have any frenz. if u wanna have frenz..you have to be true to them and not USE them. message to person im referring to if reading: can u just stop ruining my life?! if you were in my shoes..im sure you would do the same thing too. i wanted to talk to sin yee in private..but you just HAVE to interrupt. you wanna know why you dun have any TRUE frens? because u always USE people. when u dun have any frenz to hang out with..you go to sin yee. once people start talking to you..you ignore her. be thankful i even let you follow sin yee, ernesta and i to the interchange. otherwise..i would have just said NO. so if u dun mind..i'd like you to f*** off and stay away from me.