totally lost it today mann. screamed at the whole class cuz they were noisy and diana was trying to tell them something. felt so bad after that. i didn't mean to scream at them but it was the only way diana could tell them what she wanted to say. so guilty. can't seem to forgive myself for what happened today. i don't wanna go to school tomorrow. i don't think i deserve to be in twoSIX'05. i feel like as if i'm screwed. why? why is this happening to me? is it fate? or is it just my luck that i'm like this? i don't want to be such a nag in class. screaming at them, telling them to keep quiet. i don't like it. i really don't like it one bit. but you guys are really the ones who make me scream. i'm terribly sorry for screaming at you today, twoSIX. i just hope that we can learn cooperate more as a class. if one of the class com members, or any of the other girls who need to make an announcement, needs to talk to the whole class about something, please please please learn to cooperate and listen to what that person has to say. i really don't like it when the whole class is doing their own thing while someone is trying to say something to the whole class. omg. i have no idea what i'm trying to say. but ya. hopefully you guys know what i'm trying to say. anyway, today is sinsin's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINSIN!! i love you tons!! God Bless!!

i am gonna die right after i finish this post. went to anna's birthday party today. omg. never had so much fun at anna's house. at first, i didn't want to go. but then i felt bad not going so in the end i went. took 145 there. sat at the back, eating cheese fries. =P got to anna's house, ate, made fun of things and then it was cake time. sang her a birthday song for the 3rd time. then ah, when anna blew the cake, wha. damn terok mann. she blow ah..cannot blow properly. when she blew the candles, HER SALIVA CAME OUT ALONG WITH IT. o-m-g. it was damn damn damn damn damn disgusting. had no choice but to eat the cake. it was a really horrible thing to do. shorini was damn drama mann. haha. she was like 'im gonna die soon'. hahahahahaha. then after that, we went home. the minute i got home, i needed to do IT. i ran straight for the bathroom. i think it was the cake. eew. gross. anyway, shorini called me after that to tell me that she was gonna die in 5 minutes. she's probably gone now. no more shorini. don't know about gowri though. im still alive. haha. gonna die soon. or maybe when i sleep. if you don't see me on monday in school, that means that i have gone to the other world. haha. or maybe in a hospital bed, suffering from cancer or a terrible disease. aaaaaahhhhhh. i don't wanna die so soon!! im only 13!! at least i'll get to meet shorini in heaven. =D and maybe gowri. haha. ok then. i'll see all the people, who ate the cake, in heaven then. goodbye blog.

F*** that brenda wan lah.
she tells the class that the chocomania vouchers deadline will be extended. next thing i know, i make a wasted trip down to orchard only to find out that i cant use the vouchers anymore. fine lah!! damn pissed with her already. thank god she won't be teaching us anymore. i regret giving her the flowers. she doesn't deserve anything. so what if she was our form teacher? she cant teach. she's damn bias. i hate her. argh. shouldn't be using language like this but it's the only way to vent my anger. i cant stand her anymore!! i hate her. i hate her. i hate her. *pissed off*

youth day today. had sooooo much fun. went to the disco thingy in the hall with joey. haha. then met up with the others. sooo much fun i tell you. it was damn noisy, hot and my eardrums nearly burst. haha. then after school we went to watch alot like love. omg. that show should be NC16. so gross i tell you. haha. but it was pretty good lah. had tons of fun today. wish we could have that disco thingy again next year.