oh mann. cat class was freaking fun yesterday please.
eternal dawn came. it was like a praise and worship session.
WHOA. was really good mann. other then the fact that my bro's in the band.
hahaha. he's super ego please. "the bass wasn't as good cos I wasn't playing".
anyway, beatrice and i wanted to get high but then we thought we'd be the only goondoos getting high and all.
so the first part, we were like getting 'warmed-up' before letting go of ourselves and go wild.
so we sang a few songs, then started clapping, followed by swaying, then for the last few songs, we stood on the chairs and started going wild.
and for the very last song, we sang and jumped until our hair was all messy and all. hahaha.
mann. was so super duper fun lah please.
can't wair for confi camp!
ETERNAL DAWN's gonna be performing for us again!
that means..ANOTHER PRAISE AND WORSHIP SESSION! oh my gawd. yess mann! another few more months!
be patient, lizee. :D

DANCE was simply fun today!
we like practised for only an hour then started dancing and taking spastic photos.
hahaha.
our contemp item is so damn bloody nice please.
managed to see the whole thing from the front with lyn.
it's really good mann.
just have to clean up on steps and VIOLA!
bring it on mann. hahaha.
do come down and support DANCE ENSEMBLE!

PIROUETTES
3rd JUNE'06
UNIVERSITY CULTURAL CENTRE
0730 - 0930
$15 / $30

SIX more days till dance night!

it's not my fault that i'm acting like this. i'm tired and get agitated easily. you should know that by now. but when you come home and start showing your temper, walking outta the house, it just makes me feel real guilty. what did i do to deserve this? then you send me an sms saying that you don't wanna come home to a rat hole everyday. c'mon mann. why?

i know i've been really moody and all. but why do you just have to show your temper and vent your anger by sending me messages that are so hurting?! i AM human after all you know. and i DO have feelings. so why did you have to ruin my perfectly-good-day by sending me that message?! why did you even message ME in the first place?! why couldn't you have messaged jeremy or something?! WHY ME?! why am I always the one who gets hurt?! not debbie, not jon, not josh, not jeremy, but ME. if this carries on, i wouldn't wanna live under this 'rat hole' anymore. and you wonder why I'M like this. why i show my temper and all. wanna know why?! cos i learn from YOU.

i never asked to be like this. i turned out like this because i learn from the people around me. and that includes you. so will you please do me a favour and set a good example to the younger ones? you always blame ME for setting bad examples to the younger ones. you always pick on me. why is that so? why can't there be a world where there's no fighting? no bitching. no whatever. why can't it be a peaceful world where everyone can live in harmony.

i pray to God that he can help me overcome this difficult period of time. i can't take it anymore. help me to become a stronger person, Lord. i don't wanna live in this kind of world, so violent and full of hatred. Dear Lord, please help me become a better person. please help to bring my family closer together and not end up in so many arguements. I ask this through Christ, our Lord. Amen.

NETBALL CARNIVAL was okay i guess.
3/6 did exceptionally great today mann.

netball - 8th position
cheerleading - 4th position
banner - 8th position
overall - 6th position

WELL DONE GUYS!
continue working like this and we can win anything!
hahaha.
we're definitely much closer compared to last time hurr.
for doing so well for the netball carnival, i'm gonna plan a BBQ fer all of you!
you guys really deserve it.

netballers
you guys played really well today. so proud of ya'll. i may have been a little agitated at times, but i didn't really mean it. to those who got injured, do take care of yerselves yeah. really really really proud of ya'll!

cheerleaders
you guys were simply AWESOME. the stunts and all, wow. i have only one word to say, CONGRATS! all that hard work really paid off yeah. do look after yourselves yeah. to the 'casualties', please please please look after yourselves. don't over-work anything yeah. ((:

the rest of the class
thank you thank you thank you soo much for giving us moral support! although you guys didn't do much, you were really supportive when we were playing. appreciate all you have done for us. ;)

oh, forgot to mention, netball carinval's tomorrow.
not sure if we can do well.
okay, maybe for cheerleading.
really proud of them today.
they've really worked their guts out.
a little brushing up tomorrow and VOILA!
their gonna be oh so ready.
have some confidence in yourselves yeah. ;)
as for the netballers, i have only one thing to say to you.
PLAY WELL.
i'm just hoping and praying that ya'll won't get injured or anything tomorrow.

message to threeSIX'06:
you guys have definitely proven me wrong. i guess i was just a little to harsh with ya'll? yeah. i'm really sorry for that. been under a lot of pressure these few days. hahaha. really hope ya'll will cooperate with me from now on. it's really hard for me to handle ya'll cos i've not led a whole entire class before. i was always like second in-charge or something. so this is my first time being class chair and i really hope we can make this class a better place for all of us. ;) CHEERS!

someone help!
lizee may be suffering from depression!

TEN reasons why she may be suffering from DEPRESSION.
1. she can't take the stress load anymore.
2. she can't control the class anymore.(she never could)
3. she can't think properly anymore.
4. she can't do anything with confidence anymore.
5. she can't do anything right.
6. she's always giving that depressed look.
7. she's really tired.
8. she's getting pissed easily.
9. she gets fits when she's pissed.
10. she's starting to hate life?

URGH. wtf is happening to me? never felt like this before mann. i can't do anything right anymore. it's like, when i'm annoyed, i just sit down and keep quiet. i don't blow my top anymore. why? maybe it's cos i don't wanna be hated by people? i don't know anymore. i don't know what to do anymore. gosh. i'm so hating this mann. the worst day in my entire life. IT SUCKS BIG TIME.

wtf is your problem? why are you such an attention-seeker? you tell me one thing, but do another. how do i believe you anymore? you might as well just change class lah please. everyone's getting the wrong idea and they're complaining to me. wth do you want me to do? I CAN'T MAKE EVERYONE HAPPY YOU BITCH. i tried telling you without blowing my top. i CONTROLLED. and what do you do now? bitch about me behind my back! you think i don't know what's going on? your wrong, you asshole.

you know what. just go and bitch about me. i don't give a shit about you anymore. your not my friend anymore. i don't know who you are. your just creating more problems for me. here i am, so stressed out about this whole bloody thing. and there you are, making life so much more difficult for me. i try my very best to make everyone happy in class. what's the outcome? i make a handful of people annoyed.

you wanna know why you don't have any friends in class? it's cos of your stinking attitude towards others. they think your annoying to them, pissing them off, trying to act cute. please lah. if you wanna say anything bad about me, SAY IT TO MY FACE. unless your a CHICKEN. if you have anything against me, SAY IT TO MY FACE! stop all the back-stabbing. if you really hate me, then just SAY IT RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY FACE. i can't take this bullshit anymore. if you didn't want me as a class chair, why did you bother voting for me?

i have people threatening me in class now. black mailing me and shit. why do you have to do this? if it's to get more friends, i have only one thing to say. your gonna be the most hated girl in class. no one's gonna wanna be your friend. just stop all this bullshit. if this continues any further, you'll be seeing my multi-coloured finger up your ass. BOOYA! :D

NETBALL CARNIVAL'S IN SIX DAYS!
HOW?! haven't finished cheerleading, don't have enought time to practice netball.
WTH!
why can't they have it like after june?!
dammit.
so frigging stressed out now.
results aren't good at all.
flunked so many subjects please.
then there's dance, which consumes a lot of time.
have to go and shop fer my costume tomorrow.
but that's like after ballet and netball prac.
oh well.
gonna be a real tiring week this week.

don't know what's happening to me. getting so worked up over the slightest thing. maybe i'm just to excited about the netball carnival? guess i don't want it to be like camp. we really screwed that one up. our class "reputation" just went down like that. this is our time to prove to other classes that we can work together as a class mann. TEEHEE. hope this works out.

CHILL LIZEE :D

school was SUPER boring today mann.
maybe except for the netball part.
TEEHEE.
gosh.
netball carnival's NEXT WEEK!
is my class prepared yet?
err..NOPE!
how nice.
hopefully we don't screw this one up.
don't want it to be like camp.
URGH.
BUT, we shall work hard for it!
i have confidence in 3/6!
hahaha.

played this praxis game thingy today.
stupid instructor kept calling me "li-ZHI" instead of "li-ZEE".
WTH?
super spastic please.
anyhow, better get back to planning fer netball carnival.
can't stay for the whole thing!
WHY?
cos i have dance at TWO
sighs.
oh well. it's gonna be hectic from now on.

dance was alright today.
had ballet and contemp.
instructors didn't come at all. haha.
BUT, we still practised really hard.
so proud of ourselves!
haha. anyway, there's contemp and hip-hop tomorrow.
FOUR stinking hours of dance.
no break in between.
sighs.
i guess it's alright.
just hate getting injured.
oh well.
hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.
no injuries and stuff.
hahaha.
OH! have to go shopping for dance night costume!
hip-hop's costume's gonna be green, white, black &silver.
nice combi mann!
hahaha.
anyone wanna follow me?
hahaha.


so confused! lots of things are happening now. dance night's in about 18 days, netball carnival is like next week, gotta plan a class outing. sighs. OTHER things going on in my head. mann. i need you by my side. (:

IT'S COMING BACK! all the ankle problems and bruises are BACK!
hahahaha.
just one practice for ballet and i come back with so many injuries.
oh well.
at least i'm more occupied now.
THERE'S FINALLY DANCE!
almost died due to boredom.
just can't live without dance.
WHEE!
ballet was super fun please.
jenna taught us new steps!
a little difficult though.
then towards the end, tailor came, took measurements.
THEN, jeanette 'took over' cos jenna had to talk to the tailor.
guess what she made us do.
SPLITS.
WHOA! bloody painful mann.
made us all do splits, saw me down on the floor, asked me to go on the chair.
GOSH. haven't done that kinda thing in ages mann.
i mean, putting muh leg up on the chair and do a split.
BAD MISTAKE.
should have pretended that i couldn't go down. :D

anyway, after ballet on saturday, went to olivia's house.
our intention was to do the puppets for our presentation.
what happened in the end?
we watched TWO movies.
white chicks and raise your voice.
oh mann. really good stuff boy.

IT'S OVER!
after about 2 weeks of hitting the books and getting stressed, IT'S ALL OVER.
yeah babeh.
can slack all i want now.
that means i have MORE time to plan class outings and stuff. oh yeah mann!
oh, seems that this year we're gonna have netball carnival again.
WHY OH WHY?
oh well. i only have like 2 stinking weeks to plan the whole thingy, whose gonna play and all.
urgh.
being class chair sucks mann. so many things to do.
BUT, nevermind. don't see why the class voted for me though.
ANYWAY, have loads more time to blog. shall vow to try and blog EVERYDAY to make up for all those days my blog was dead. hahaha.
okay. have to get started on planning class outing now.
i'll be back.
hahaha. :D