Tuesday, October 31, 2006
holidays're BORING man. i'm just rotting at home, clearing up my stuff and all. at least there's still dance. hahaha. YAY! ballet tomorrow, then there's technique training on wednesday, and then there's SYF on thursday. busy week i guess? :D
anyway, CONFI CAMP'S COMING! hahaha. got my dress settled already. at long last. TEEHEE. it's sooo nice man.
oh well, someone ask me out! lizee's getting bored at home. :\
LIZEE BLOGGED @12:22 AM;
Monday, October 30, 2006
my ankle's killing me. :\ i was walking to my room after my nap in the hall and i suddenly banged my ankle agaisnt something. don't know what it was, but what the hell, it's hurting like shit. oh how clever can you get lizee. plus there's contemp with zaki this week. PSSH. :\ i hate myself for being to clumsy. hahaha.
anyway, went for the chalet thingo yesterday. getting there alone took us close to 2 hours. hahaha. was suppose to meet at 2 at tp but some people were late and came close to 2.30 instead. hahaha. then took 88 all the way down to pasir ris. bloody long ride i tell you. got motion sickness on the bus. :\ got to the interchange, took a cab down and showed mel and olivia how good my map-reading skills were. hahaha. cos the taxi driver asked us to find the place and directions from the strret directory. i even spoke in CHINESE to him man. all clap for lizee! hahaha.
FINALLY found the place, went cycling. played on the spiderweb and i got injured. but that was a minor thing. hahaha. OH, and MELANIE LEONG FELL DOWN WHILE TRYING TO TURN! hahaha. was quite hilarious. olivia and i were in front and i heard a scream coming from mel. next thing i knew, mel was on the grass. hahaha.
after all that, headed back to start on the BBQ. took us 1/2 an hour to get the thing going. hahaha. guess i suck when it comes to BBQ. heh. SORRY GUYS. :P so when ningxin's mum FINALLY got it going, we started cooking. hahaha.
ate and ate and ate, and watched my chinese show. then ate s'more upstairs then fatty and i had to go. so left the chalet at 10.45, took the train and reached home at 12-ish. was super tired after that. HAHAHA. oh well, was a really fun day though. :D
cat class today was, as usual, a bore. nothing much really. just that some youth groups came over and stuff. had some activity after that. goodness, i swear andrew tries too hard to be an ass-hole. hahaha. he's sucha wannabe. :D but whatever. it was a different lesson for once. HEH.
alrighty then, g'night people. lizee is sleepy and she's in pain, dammit.
why're you so clumsy, lizee?
LIZEE BLOGGED @2:09 AM;
Thursday, October 26, 2006
RESULTS DAY!
i so screwed it man. ms chye said i'd improved but she also thinks that i'm spending too much time on dance. =\ i guess she's right though. SIGHS. so next year, i've got SYF and i'm probably gonna screw my exams just like this year. i feel like screaming man.
but oh well, lizee's just gotta work harder for next year. PSSH.
oh, and hello
NADYA PRAJOGA :D
i've been recieving reports that you have been reading my posts and asking if it's
him. hahahaha. sorry, but sad to say, NO, it's not
him. so don't go round jumping to conclusions alrighty? hahahaha. you naughty girl.
LIZEE BLOGGED @6:42 PM;
Monday, October 23, 2006
ogay, so we had some social ettiquette thingy today. it was kinda fun i suppose. hahaha. ROSE MARY IS SOOO CUTE! the way the tells her joke jut crack me up. OH! and i learnt some pretty interesting stuff too. like pointing fingers and all. hahaha. those who didn't come missed out on loadsa fun. :D
ah well, looks like things're back to normal. at least, i hope so anyway. hahaha. i can FINALLY stop crying, wasting my tears on one problem. EVERYONE SAY YAY FOR LIZEE! hahaha.
i love you. :)
LIZEE BLOGGED @6:29 PM;
Sunday, October 22, 2006
y'know, i meant ''STOP PISSING ME OFF" as in to stop talking about the whole damn thing. but i guess you miss interpreted it. if you simply love trashing people, why don't you just go join a gang and trash other people for the rest of your life? it can be your new hobby.
you think i like getting involve in this shit? you think i love handling problems? you think my hobby is CREATING the problem? get your facts right first if you wanna trash people or whatever. for your info, i had no bloody idea who tagged your board. and i swear it wasn't me. but if you wanna think it's me, go ahead. there's probably nothing i can do to make you guys happy. if it makes you better, i'll just get people to vote for YOU to become the next class chair. then everyone'll think that you're the greatest and they'd wanna see all the great works you'll be doing for the class.
i hate solving problems,
i hate our class cos of how i treated ya'll,
and yes, i really really feel guilty.
but have you any idea how it feels like whenever i hear comments like that?
i know i was being a bitch, and i've admitted it already. what more do you want from me?! all i can say is, thank you so much for making me feel extremely miserable right now. now i know your hobby is to make people feel lousy and make them think that you're the greatest. go and do some reflecting, cos it works. just look at yourself in the mirror.
so, if there's anything else that i can help you with, just let me know how ya'll feel and tell me IN MY FACE. otherwise, stop spamming my board and making yourselves feel like the greatest. as i've said before, i'm sick of crying over this minor thing. if you wanna make things worst, just say whatever you want to me in school. cos i'm sick and tired of handling this problem online.
my life is so fucking messed up, that i even had thoughts of ending it. but i didn't. cos i have friends who care for me, who try to cheer me up. but what they're doing isn't working cos some assholes just aren't gonna give in.
FOR THE ONES WHO CARE;
thank you for cheering me up. thank you guys for being there when i needed you guys the most. it touches my heart to see that there are actually people who care about me. thank you guys sooo much, from the bottom of my heart.
LIZEE BLOGGED @8:32 PM;
Saturday, October 21, 2006
so i've made a mistake and I'M SORRY. what else do you want me to do? bow down to your feet and say sorry? and just so you know, i hardly have the time to spam other peoples' boards. i just go round, blog-hopping, trying to figure out what you guys really want in class. what do i get in the end?
ACCUSATIONS.
just do me a favour and stop this already. i swear i'll never do anything to you guys anymore okay. go live your own life cos i've got my own to handle at this crucial point in time. i've got class problems, personal problems and other stuff. yes, you're probably thinking "yay for you! you're living a shitty life!". fine, i admit i do deserve that. and yes, i definitely feel guilty for what i've done to the class. but do you really have to continue bitching about me? i mean, by all means, go ahead. everyone has bitched about someone before.
i'll do my confessions now if you want.
yes, i was being a bitch.
i was being a pain in the ass.
i know i never listened to you guys.
i judged ya'll based on your attitude in class.
i've never done any good to 3/6.
i seldomed praised the class.
i always took things too seriously.
i lost faith with the whole class at most times.
THERE. are you happy now? are you finally happy that i've admitted all the mistakes i've done in class/to your whole clique? yes, i'm really really sorry. and thank you for making me feel even more guilty. cos what you've tagged was indeed hurting. and don't worry, i've already made a promise to myself. if ever i become class chair, i'm stepping down, regardless of how much the teacher persuades me. i made that promise to myself a few weeks ago cos i knew you guys wouldn't wanna cooperate with me at all.
the guilt has sunk in, and it's piercing my heart to see such things being said about me. i know i was being a bitch. and at the beginning of the year, i knew i was never gonna make a good class chair. i wasn't ready for this task. and now, i'm 100% sure that i'm not fit to be in the class comm at all. i know i may have said some things about you guys. and like i said, i'm really really sorry.
i hate to say this but i really never liked you guys at all. but then i told myself, "i can't just ignore them since they're in the same class as me." you probably think i'm doing that now, and i don't blame you. i know i was being a bias bitch but i really wasn't thinking straight. it's extremely pressurizing when it comes to planning this kinda thing. i only wanted the best but i ended up taking everything so seriously. i guess ya'll never had any fun when it came to inter-class competitions. the main aim for the competitions was to have fun but i ended up taking it so seriously that i wanted to win everything.
i really hate myself for being like this. i don't know how to have fun, when to be serious, or how to react to certain problems. but i really want you guys to stop piling on the problems for me. as it is, i'm up to my ears, trying to solve my own problems. just stay out of my life already, PLEASE. i'm begging you guys to just stop spamming my board and go live your own lives. i don't have time to solve problems like these. i've got a life to live, and i want it to be problem-free. so thank you so much for adding on the guilt in me.
i've got some relfecting to do. i know. i was being an ass-hole, a bitch, a slut, a whore, a whatever. by all means, curse me. i know what i've done to you was bias, and like i said, i'm really sorry. so just please, please, please, stop spamming my board already. if you have anything else to say, say it to me, in my face, in school. i'm sick and tired of this already. yes, i deserve this. so once again, thank you so much for making me feel guilty. from the bottom of my heart, i am really, really sorry.
hate me, curse me, bitch about me. go ahead and do whatever it takes to make you guys feel better. i'm sick of crying over these problems at home, right before i go to bed. everytime i think about it, it makes me wanna cry even more. just forget about this whole thing already.
PLEASE.
LIZEE BLOGGED @10:44 PM;
YES! i do feel guilty for what i've done to the class okay! and yes, i took it TOOOO seriously. i know all that already! if you wanna continue spamming my board, HAVE THE GUTS TO PUT DOWN YOUR NAME THEN, SUCKER. but then again, why don't you just tell me all this shit IN SCHOOL. too chicken to do so?
i know i took it too seriously. and for your info, I DIDN'T CRY WHEN I STOMPED OUTTA CLASS. have you any idea who frustrating it is when i see
PEOPLE READING THEIR COMIC BOOKS WHEN I'M TRYING TO TELL YA'LL SOMETHING?!
fine, it's my fault for getting so pissed off for nothing.
for being such a petty bitch.
for screaming unnecessarily at ya'll.
for taking class stuff too seriously.
for losing faith in you guys.
for all the bull-shit i've done to the class.
you're probably thinking, "you've done nothing to help 3/6"
i know okay. but it's not like i wanna scream at ya'll. yes, i get really petty and pissed off at times. but who wouldn't? i mean, if your standing infront of the class, trying to tell them something and no one's listening to you, how the hell would you feel like? IGNORED? PISSED OFF? go figure.
TO ALL 3/6 GIRLS;
i'm sorry for screaming at you guys and giving you such a shitty attitude as class chair. i feel really guilty now cos what i've done was to be greedy and win instead of having fun instead. yes, i was being a total bitch for the past few weeks. hopefully, i won't have to do this anymore for the next 2 years when we'll be together. if there's anything i can do to make it up to you guys, i'll do it. i swear i'm sorry for all the pressure i've been giving you guys.
I'M REALLY, REALLY SORRY.
LIZEE BLOGGED @5:41 PM;
Thursday, October 19, 2006
I HAVE A REEEALLY BIG PIMPLE. :\
you evil being. you ate like really oily stuff and then you only tell me AFTER. if you're reading this, you can get me pimple cream for my birthday. hahahahhaa. it's getting really really beeg! OH WELL. next time, I'LL give you an even BIGGER one. -sniggers- :D
anyway, this week has been really stressful and pressurizing. stoopid inter-class dance competition preps are making me go mad. and some people wonder why there isn't any class spirit. PPSSSHH. why don't
you do something bout it? hurr? i can't take it anymore man. after this whole shit thingy, i swear i'm not gonna become class chair again next year. it's a shitty position in the class comm. and our dear form-teacher doesn't even know what the hell is going on. i swear she's damn blur man. she makes me look UN-blur.
OH. we also had our
heritage trail today. it was super fun in the bus with yuva man. hahahaha. i'm sorry to say this, but your fringe sucks yuva. :D YOUR WELCOME!
LIZEE BLOGGED @7:03 PM;
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
my whole body's in pain right now. hahaha. had hip-hop in the afternoon with the class (although there were only about 20 girls?) and then had the SYF auditions with ZAKI after that. i still think he's pretty gay.
so i met yuva in the morning, headed to class with my big gulp and waited and waited until people came. hahaha. started choreographing with the help of my fellow rhapsody-ians. hahaha. it's was uber fun.
ALL THOSE WHO DID NOT TURN UP TODAY WITHOUT TELLING ME ARE DEAD DEAD DEAD TOMORROW :D serves you guys right if i blow my top.
ONE MORE THING!
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU 3/6-ERS (for those who turned up anyway). YOU GUYS ARE GONNA DO AN AWESOME JOB ON FRIDAY. WE'RE GONNA WIN!
as for my own life, things're getting a lil' better.
thank you, Lord. hahaha. he's helped me overcome a lot of things. and for all the phone calls i've been getting from you, thank you sooo much. hahaha.
i'm lovin you. oh yeah babeh.you deserve a great beeg kiss from me :D
i'm a happy girl again. :))
LIZEE BLOGGED @5:22 PM;
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
IT'S FINALLY OVER!
after almost 2 weeks of mugging fer the exams, it was all over at 0910 today. hahaha. took my time doing the damn F&N paper and still had 25 minutes to spare. what did i end up doing? staring at the clock and thinking about someTHINGS (for yuvadurga who doesn't know the meaning between someTHINGS and someONE :D). so anyway, after the whole paper, went back home, took a shower and plonked myself infront of the com. then later on yuva called, discuss discuss discuss and then i left for the bus-stop.
and so, i rushed to the bus-stop and guess who i met?! hahaha. shan't say anything. :) he was about to go on the bus anyway. then a 105 came and yuva wasn't inside so i was wondering where the hell she was. alighted at a stop and waited for the OTHER 105 bus to come. i am sucha a nice person, aren't i? hahaha.
met yuva and she wanted a drink from starbucks. so we walked and we walked and we walked, so far away that we just decided to meet val and farah and seoul garden itself. stuffed ourselves after that. it was so darn funny there i tell you. stupid farah threw fries at me. we so wasted a lot of food man. hahaha. and so, went to jalan-jalan around town after that. went to topshop first then headed back to esprit then went to cine, crossed the road to heeren and walked back to zara. saw some people at starbucks after that. hahaha.
then farah had to head back so yuva and i went to val's house to watch
CHARLIE AND THE CHOCOLATE FACTORY. then after that (while yuva was SLEEPING), val and i discussed what we were gonna do before our sleepover. hahaha. then headed back after that. took the same bus as yuva but she alighted earlier. so i was left alone in the bus. saw joachim at toa payoh. and then walked back home.
so now, i'm free as a bird, i'm tired and i can't wait for dance to start again! hahaha. FRIDAY FRIDAY FRIDAY!
lizee's a happy girl!
LIZEE BLOGGED @10:37 PM;
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
I SCREWED ACCOUNTS!
i
THOUGHT it was gonna be alright but then WHOOSH!
it was friggin difficult.
so i think i'm gonna screw 3 papers,
mt, maths and accounts.
ARGH.
but it's ogay. at least i know i tried my best. hawhaw. i think.
just
one more paper lizee.
it's just the stinking F&N paper left and you'll be done.
PERSEVERENCE.
hahaha.
SEOUL GARDEN-ING TOMORROW!
val, farah, yuva and i are gonna stuff ourselves.
(not so sure about yuva though. :P)
i shall skip breakfast and drown all my sorrows while eating my
tom yam chicken and all the other yummy stuff. OH WOWIEE! i can just imagine myself stuffing my face already. =\
LIZEE BLOGGED @2:27 PM;
Monday, October 09, 2006
ARGH. i can't seem to study for accounts right now. nothing's going in. i think i'm gonna screw theory. hahaha.but i don't wanna fail accounts! otherwise i'm gonna have to buy that bloody yuva
starbucks. DAMN. hahaha.
ogay, the previous post was sorta depressing, i guess. hahaha. but yeah, everything's alright now. cooled down and had a little chat on the phone. :)
3 words for you dear. i think you know that already. hahaha. without you in my life, i would've collapsed. it's all thanks to you and your ''counselling''. :D but really, you've helped me a lot and i can't thank you more. study hard for your remaining papers! it's just another 3 more days, you'll be free after that. hahaha. *BEEG HUG*
LIZEE BLOGGED @8:01 PM;
I'M UPDATING AGAIN! :D
i couldn't tahan anymore. yes, it's exam period but i've only
two more papers. YESS! so i shall continue updating from where i stopped. HEHEH.
where should i start? EOYs were pretty aiight. there's only accounts and F&N left. probably gonna screw MT and maybe MATHS. shouldn't be too bad for the rest. so anyway, many many things have happened over the past few weeks. i solved
ONE problem. YAY FOR LIZEE! but then, another one popped up. then there's this OTHER one that came up too. =\
how bad can life get? just as i thought everything'd be alright, more shitty problems attacked me.
misunderstanding? HA! what bullshit is that? but anyway, i don't really bother bout it. i just can't believe i wasted time on a bunch of people. what's happening to this whole world man?
and yes, i read
your blog. if you wanna continue criticizing people, using the f word and calling them a bitch, please get outta my class. all you know how to do is criticize the class comm. have you any idea how hard it is to get you fugging lazy bum bums to cooperate? why don't we all just vote for
YOU to become the class chair. you'll probably turn the class upside down and inside out. i'd be more than delighted to mention your name but i'm gonna be nice and spare you the embarrassment. i hate you and your oh-so-bimbotic clique. you wanna know why? you lazy bum bums don't know how to cooperate, you don't know how to give ideas, you don't know anything.
you only know how to
COMPLAIN, COMPLAIN and COMPLAIN.
why do i have such losers in my class? it's not that i don't wanna hang out with them, but who would? who would hang out (or at least TRY to interact) with people who constantly
roll your eyes at you, gossip about you, blame you for every single mistake. just who in this fugging world will? GREAT. i promised myself not to use
that word but damn. oh well.
GOD BLESS THE PERSON WHO BECOMES THE CLASS CHAIR OF MY CLASS NEXT YEAR.
if it's me again, i'm just gonna step down. i hate handling this kinda bullshit.
thank you for understanding me, for trying to cheer me up. your the only one right now who knows what i'm going through. thank God for giving me someone like you. and at this crucial point in time, i'm needing you more than ever. we HAVE to meet up soon aiight? love you tons dear :)
LIZEE BLOGGED @2:57 PM;