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Sunday, December 31, 2006

OH POOF. for crying out loud, it's NEW YEAR'S EVE and i'm feeling like shit. just what the hell is wrong with me. sheesh, i shall go take a walk downstairs now and catch some fresh air. how much worse could it get. (i'm guessing, a lot more worse later on :\ )

LIZEE BLOGGED @9:26 PM;


alrighty, so since it's the last post for 2006, i shall try to sound happier and not ruin everyone's mood. :)

after everything that's happened, i've learnt how to ignore those horrible moments and treasure those special moments. never, EVER, take things fer granted cos you never know when you may lose it. (okay, this is crap :\)

to end on a happier note, HAPPY NEW YEAR IN ADVANCE EVERYONE :)

LIZEE BLOGGED @7:06 PM;

Friday, December 29, 2006

aah, today was really the only day that made me feel sooo much better. met up with val in school to get her books then headed off to yuva's to surprise her. poor girl was feeling down so we decided to pop by to say hi and share our little secrets. :)

and i swear, yuva's BIG PROBLEM was kinda hilarious. so, we mostly talked about DUCK (yes, D-U-C-K). that doofhead only knew how to say "how val, how lizee". oh the many things she told us about duck. so scandulous please. PPSSHH.

after that, left yuva's and headed to tp. decided to stop outside church and walk to the interchange cos i figured i needed some time alone. and so, i walked alone in the rain, kept on thinking about solving that stoopid problem, but what the hell, i think i'll just leave it be fer the time being. never fails to spoil my mood everyday. :\

so my happiness level's gone up by just a teeny weeny little bit. school's gonna start soon! haven't exactly finished homework yet but i don't really care anymore. didn't have the mood to do anything during the hols anyway. cos it was all your fault.

thank you for screwing me up. :)

LIZEE BLOGGED @12:23 AM;

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

i've gotta new hobby.
it's called feeling horribly tired and sick of putting up with your stupid nonsense.
nothing's been right,
nothing's been good,
everything's all wrong.

all those sleepless nights,
all those tears wasted,
why did i even bother?

i tried to help,
but i ended up getting all the blame.
so i've decided,
you can think what you wanna think.
cos i really don't bother anymore.

i've realised, all you've done to me
is push all the blame to me
cos you don't wanna accept what's happened.

well listen up,
WHAT'S HAPPENED HAS HAPPENED
AND YOU CAN ONLY BLAME YOURSELF
FOR WHAT'S HAPPENED.

LIZEE BLOGGED @9:35 PM;

Monday, December 25, 2006

MERRY CHRISTMAS!
so yes, it's christmas day but i don't seem to be in any kinda holiday spirit. cos you ruined everything for me. thank you so much for allowing me to experience the worst christmas ever.

yes, there were SOME good times i had, but 70% of it was horrible. i didn't feel like doing anything but just spend some time alone. i was stoning half the time and i didn't even feel excited about opening presents (which usually happens every year). but somehow, this year was way different.

LIZEE BLOGGED @10:22 PM;


i so f*cking hate myself. i've been acting like a total asshole during these past few days and i don't know why. i've been using more vulgarities lately, haven't been eating right, can't go to sleep, more and more road blocks are in the way and i don't f*cking know how to get past them.

why am i acting like this? i don't know myself, but i'd really like to know why. nothing's been going right this christmas. in fact, this has been the worst christmas ever. cos i've never felt this lousy during christmas, but i guess this year's the first.

i feel like sucha fickle-minded bitch. i can't seem to make up my mind for ANYTHING. first i say this, then i say that. URGH. i hate it! and it's like no one in this stinking world really bothers about me. well, maybe they do, but i just don't seem to sense it. i feel all alone right now, like there's no one to turn to.

crap, i'm getting all emo again. sighs. I F*CKING NEED HELP RIGHT NOW. CALL ME! YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE I WANNA TALK TO RIGHT NOW BUT YOU DON'T SEEM TO CARE ABOUT ME ANYMORE.

LIZEE BLOGGED @2:42 AM;

Saturday, December 23, 2006

i'm feeling lousy again. :\ i'm super tired man. haven't been able to sleep these past few nights. OH WELL.

CHRISTMAS IS COMING! at least there's something to look forward to. AAH, my tongue's killing me. i've got 2 ulcers on it. :( it hurts so bad man. URGH.

i'm confused over hell loadsa things. it's driving me all kuku again. HELP?

LIZEE BLOGGED @6:18 PM;

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

i've got my sinus back. it's "sniff sniff sniff" all day once again. doesn't it sound fun? :\ i feel so tired (whaddya expect, i've been staying up till 2ish AGAIN). dunno what the hell's happening to my sleeping pattern and it's pissing me off again.

sometimes, i wonder why i do these things to myself. cos all that's happening to me is horrible. my mind goes blank at certain times, i doze off at the weirdest times, my mind goes all kuku. poof. and all this had to happen right before christmas. these stupid things i do to myself are pointless. my brain's going all kuku, nothing's right.

LIZEE BLOGGED @9:07 PM;

Monday, December 18, 2006

ETERNAL DAWN'S "BATTLE FOR CHARITY" WAS DA BOMB MAN!
super cool lah! well, except for the REALLY BAD BANDS (which i shall not mention :D). haha. so went fer dinner at the fish&chips coffee shop. waited for jon and ming, saw andrew keenan and ben a while later. then some more CYF people came. haha. then yadayada, ate, then went off to TP CENTRAL CC.

concert started, everyone got high (except for me though, was too cold. HAHA), concert ended, ED played, results out, then headed home. :D


I CHANGED MY NUMBER! SO IF YOU DON'T HAVE IT, ASK ME ONLINE OR SOMETHING COS MY OLD NUMBER IS NOW MY SIS'S NUMBER. :D

LIZEE BLOGGED @12:53 AM;

Saturday, December 16, 2006

OMG. RYAN CONFERIDO IS HOT HOT HOT!
i love his choreo man. i got loadsa bruises though, but what the hell.
i still love him. haha. SUPER HOTNESS MAN!
OH OH OH! i got his autograph and i got a pic taken with him and MELODY!
-faints- LIZEE'S A HAPPY GIRL MAN.

and then yesterday, when i came back from church,
DADDY GOT ME A NEW PHONE!
-GRINS-
yesterday was GREAT. haha.

and last night, i slept at 2 and woke up at 12noon today! haha.
yes, lizee's a sleepyhead. but i needed to catch up on all that sleep i lost during the chalet man! haha. okay, that was random.


OH, thank you passer-by, for flooding my board. would've been nicer if you had put yer name but NVM. :D i think i know who you are. HAHWAW.

LIZEE BLOGGED @1:29 PM;

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

ALRIGHTY, haha. i'm tired, injured (yes, again :\), and cold. PPSSHH. chalet stay was fun. went go-karting at escape! haha. yeah, nothing much happened. my blog's super dead, but nvm. i'm bored anyway. :\

goondoo's in china now! haha. i hate to say this but it's kinda boring without goondoo. cos he usually entertains me. HAWHAW. NVM, at least i save on messages. :D hurry up and come back lah goondoo. i'm suffering from the "BORED SYNDROME" again. :\

LIZEE BLOGGED @10:55 PM;

Sunday, December 10, 2006

stupid headache's driving me kuku man. oh well, tomorrow's chalet day. won't be in aaall the way till wednesday. then i've got dance with MELODY AND RYAN from SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE SEASON 1. :D

i'm sooo excited man! haha. so lizee won't be online fer 3 whole days. goodbye computer, i'll miss you. haha.

LIZEE BLOGGED @3:49 PM;

Thursday, December 07, 2006

alrighty, so this week has been spent with the CYF people. been bumming around with them in church then going out for dinner and stuff. and to set a new record, i've been down to church for the whole week! (at least until today) haha.

monday was kinda hectic. went down to city hall to help sandra with the dance thingo. left early to go for mass then went out for dinner. haha. then train-ed down to PS to meet the other CYF-ers. they were gonna watch happy feet but i couldn't cos my mum said it was getting late. :\

ANYWAY, headed down to church on tuesday again to help with the christmas deco. FYI: elizabeth sarah lee sucks when it comes to decorating christmas trees. haha. but it looked super after we finished man. :D

and wednesday was spent in little india. haha. then went down to church to pass andrew something, bought dinner and headed home.

and today was spent mostly with CYF-ers. met them in town, walked around for awhile. OH! and we got free starbucks! any drink on the menu was on-the-house man. i saved myself $6! :D then headed down to church for carolling. PPSSHH. i can't sing for nuts lah. haha. had to leave early cos mum was complaining and stuff. :\


so all this kinda summarizes the week i've had. haha. tomorrow's tim's birthday! :D

LIZEE BLOGGED @10:17 PM;

Saturday, December 02, 2006

CYF ORIENTATION.

it was fun, dirty, tiring, hot and exciting! haha. not many people turned up though. probably didn't know about the whole thingo. haha. OH WELL. met ashley in the morning then waited for mathilda and the rest, who were 40mins late. haha. then we did some ice-breakers and stuff. got split up into our different groups for AMAZING RACE. i thought to myself, "what a sucky group man". but i guess it went aiight after that.

haha. amazing race was just horrible. there was flour, we had to count book shelves, we were blind-folded, we had to memorise stuff and sing christmas carols. haha. it was kinda fun i s'pose. got back to church and had lunch at around 3.30ish.

overall, i'm really glad i went for orientation. haha. carolling's next! :D

world, be prepared to hear my horrible singing. :)

LIZEE BLOGGED @6:55 PM;

Friday, December 01, 2006

HALLELUJAH!

in just one night, everything's back to normal.
miracle or not, i'm so god damn happy that everything's over.
thank you Lord, for answering all my prayers.
for helping me through difficult periods in my life.
i really cannot thank you enough.

since you've been so good to me,
i'm gonna try to be a better person
and not take everything i have for granted.

i can finally sleep in peace tonight.
I LOVE YOU LORD! :)

LIZEE BLOGGED @10:06 PM;

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