EVERY MINUTE'S SPENT THINKING OF YOU

tomorrow's a busy busy day indeed. school in the morning, then i gotta head off to Suntec for that stupid job thingy, meeting up for dinner with ben after that, and finally, going down for session (after how many years of being MIA). bleah, i still gotta finish up tghat testimonial thingo for the school. :\

i spent most of today just thinking about some things/someone. i was extremely moody today, don't know why. gosh, this is baaaad lizee. maybe cos i was sleepy, didn't get enough sleep? yeah, that's prolly the cause of my mood swings. pfft, i don't have the mood to do anything at all. i could just sit down and stare into space for the whole day and be contented at the end of it all. i swear i don't know what's happening to me.

i guess there've been many things happening, too many up to the extent that i'm going mad and my head could explode at any moment. FWAAH, i'm gonna get more white hair i tell you. sometimes, i wonder why i do these things to myself. i hate myself for being so.. emo. :\\\\

right, i gotta finish up that testimonial of mine, then i gotta pack muh bag and head to bed (or maybe do s'more thinking). sighs, i'm ready to die luh.


no matter how i try and try, i just can't say goodbye. fuck lah, i'm back to square one. i'm back to being my usual emo self (AGAIN?!) and i'm not sleeping well. :(((( i want you back so badly. maybe i'll get a chance to see you tomorrow. ppsshh.

i've never had a dream come true, till the day that i found you.

I NEED TO SCREAM, BADLY

practical was a screwed-up piece of shit today. it was just..BLEAH. i thought we were supposed to get 2 1/2 hours, turns out we only get 2 hours so i was rushing like shytes. :\ i hate F&N lah, can i drop that subject, please? i'm losing sleep over coursework (for which i don't even get marks i deserve) and the teacher's a bitch (gee, don't we ALL know that). UURRGGHH. so frustrating, i swear.

& for some reason, i'm not looking forward to working on saturday and sunday. i just don't feel like doing anything for the next few weeks. it's supposed to be the june hols, right? well, lemme see, we've still got school, we've still got homework (that concept's never changed), i gotta finish up coursework (@#$%?!) and i'm not getting enough sleep (AGAIN :\). can someone please slap me, now?

ANYWAY, i'm finally going down for session this friday. i may be a little late though, cos i've gotta go to suntec. :\ oh well, at least ben can accompany me. WAHAHA, then maybe the 2 of us will just wait for session to end and wait for the others at macs instead. :P sounds like a good idea, aye? heh, it's been a long time since we met up luuuuh.

i haven't been able to sleep properly these few nights. FWAAH, i dreamt of all of them. every single one of them were in that same dream of mine, and it's kinda freaky y'know. sighs, thank God tomorrow's a public holiday. i can finally wake up late (provided timmo learns how to shut up when he doesn't get things the way he wants). oh, and guess what? i've been feeling emo, again. :( i swear i don't know what triggered it man. ppsshh. my life's in a mess. i need you so badly. period.


i've got nothing else to say about you. i've emptied all my tears from inside, and it's getting really dry. part of me wants to squeeze whatever's left out, another part's telling me to be strong and not break-down so easily. it's hard without you, it was never easy when you left. but i can't be selfish and keep you all to myself, that wouldn't be fair. i let you go, then you start giving me wrong ideas. i get my hopes up high, only to be disappointed at the end of it all. i effing miss you, boy. :( (this is yet another emo part of my post :\)

when you walk away, i count the steps that you take.

I DON'T WANT YOU TO RUN AWAY

last few days of school have been awesome. played indian poker on thursday during recess with my favourite classmates, hilarious shit i tell you. loser had to drink the maximum number of cups of water and not go to the toilet till after school. i was the first victim (:\), & guess whose briiliant idea about the 'no toilet' thingo was. MINE. OH MY, i tell you, i had to drink 13 cups of water at one go, and keep it in my bladder for 3 hours. it was tough, i kid you not. HAHAHA, but it was fun. :D 4/5 should know why.

headed to fatty's house after school that day, but before i could enter her house, there was a power trip. :\ me and my arse luck. hahaha, nearly took us an hour before fatty finally realised what was wrong. watched 2 movies in her room after having my prata. heh, they were SICK movies, i swear. some scenes were just..EEW(?!). headed home after watching a bit of american idol. :D JORDIN WON!

last day of school today, and we had Founder's Day Mass. the whole day was just BORING, nothing more, nothing less. i don't even get my report book tomorrow! :\ stupid laaaaah, it's so full of shit, i swear. what, they gotta see your parents before giving you your report book. @#$%?! since when did they implement this new shit into the PTDs?! ppsshh.

OMG, my previous post just reappeared. :\ UURRRGGGHHH! i'm annoyed with blogger. :\\\

ANYWAY! met fatty to go apply for our job thingo. HAHAHA, that idiot still thinks she isn't shy. MY BACKSIDE LAH, OLIVIA PAN XUE HUI! let's see how you do next weekend then, wahaha. i'm gonna earn more money than yooou! :D haha, i've prepared my shopping list for the great singapore sale already! HAHA, it was so crowded at Bugis today man. BUT, there were sales going on everywhere. it was heaven man, i swear. WHOOO! i can't wait till next next week. HAHAHA, shopping galore. :D


when do i get to see you? :) lalala, sorry, imma little high. you're my mystery boy. HAHA.

ALL I WANT IS YOU

school was the best today! hahaha, esp recess. :D we played indian poker and the loser had to drink cups of water (with the person who had the largest number in the deck). SHYTES MAN, i was in big trouble. i got an ace at first, but i changed my card and i got a two (not much of a difference aye). AND GUESS WHAT! i had to drink 13 cups of water!! i swear, i've never drunk THAT much water at one go in my entire life man. it's creazy! needed to go to the loo so badly, but here's the other part of the deal.

since we played at 11ish, i suggested that the loser(s) couldn't go to the loo until after school. i hated myself for suggesting that, i mean it man. my pee couldn't stay in for 3 hours! & mr tan wasn't making it any easier. HAHA, he made the whole class play a game with SOUNDS (e.g. make a "SSSSHHHH" sound :\). SERIOUSLY! it was tough controlling man, i started giving weird faces and stuff. HAHA, my evil classmates. :D

headed to fatty's house after school. that idiot is sucha pig. anyway, when i got to her house, there was a power trip. :\ like of all times, just when i was outside, she opens the door and tells me, "my house just got a power trip". that's just the best man. HAHA, so i had my prata for lunch, and fatty and i were wondering how to get the power supply back. THEN she suddenly remembers that there's some switch thingo OUTSIDE that MAY restore the power. and it did. :\ what arse luck i have man. hahaha.

so lemme see, tomorrow's Founder's Day and then there's report book collection after that. SO EXCITING YEAH?! not. i've got to go to Boon Keng tomorrow for some job interview thingamagic with fatty. :D YAY, $$, here i come! & GREAT SINGAPORE SALE, you better watch out for meeee! :D


the first time i met you, i somehow had that feeling that you were the one. now, i'll just have to wait and see if i'm correct. :) and hopefully, you'll be the one who solves all my problems so that i can lead a happy life :) i like you.

DREAMS CAN COME TRUE

exams, no exams. what's the difference? before and after, we still have lessons. looks like there's no such thing as "POST-EXAM ACTIVITIES". either that, or the school obviously doesn't know the meaning of activities. RAAH, it's so frustrating! intensive mother tongue is a KILLER. i mean it. 2 straight hours with cikgu was a total BORE. val and nina were sleeping, leaving me alone to try and stay awake so cikgu doesn't feel like her teaching's boring. wait, forget what i just said. that didn't make any sense. :D

URGH, anyway, my face is the most horrible thing on earth now, i swear. it's peeeeeling. now it looks like as if i've got some kind of skin cancer. :\ just great man. just hope it looks better by saturday, don't want people to think that there's some girl dancing with a skin disorder. :D haha, sighs. i'm feeling all emo again.

2 straight nights in a row, i dreamt of someone. i could swear God's trying to tell me something or the other man. HAHAHA, i mean, they were both real hapy dreams. y'know, the kind where i'm living my 'happily ever after' and i could never feel all emo again. -POUTS. these extra lessons in school aren't helping. :( i'm starting to hate school now. BLEAH.


you, you, YOU. what've you done man. after meeting you, my life's never been the same. all my free time's spent just thinking of you, or how i ended up in this state. AAH, i don't wanna talk about it anymore! dreaming of you 2 nights in a row is bad enough. URGH, i need to be left alone. my life's screwing up again. :\ oh whoopee.

PLAYSTATION'S MY NEW BEST FRIEND :D

YAAAAY! i swear i'm loving life after the exams man. no more stress till prelims! HAHAHA, physics and F&N were killers today, BUT, i shan't go into detail cos IT'S OVER! :D

after school was fun tooo! hahaha, went to fatty's house with joanna. was supposed to watch a dvd but olivia didn't have any nice ones to watch. :\ all she had were R-RATED movies. cool ah. hahaha, then joanna and i borrowed clothes and slippers and went off to yoshi for lunch! haha, then joanna and i gave fatty ALL our veggie cos we (obviously) didn't like it. haha, and surprise surprise! olivia was the last one to finish eating. SHOCKING AYE?

then horrigible #1 (joanna) wanted to go to the arcade after lunch, so we went in, and olivia and joanna played drum games (ONLY) while i watched them and laughed hysterically. then some lady had to chase me out cos i was wearing a primary school t-shirt. wth man. so that marked the end of our "arcade time", then off to the playground opposite fatty's house! haha.

and so, my 2 horrigible girls sabo-ed me. they made me go on this merry-go-round thingamagic and spun me like mad. ended up falling off the darn thing. :\ hahaha, THANKS AH. wanted to rent dvds after that but SOME PEOPLE didn't bring along their ICs so we couldn't borrow anything in the end. fatty treated us to bubble tea after that (cos she didn't wanna be the only goondoo feeling like a PIG). HAHAHA, went up to her place after that and played with the PLAYSTATION. HOHO, i swear it's fun playing fighting games with joanna and dancing games with olivia man. HAHAHA, i think playing CRASH was the best man.

so tomorrow's gonna be another day with my 3 HORRIGIBLE GIRLS (joanna, olivia and peiting. :D) at SENTOSA! hahaha, i can't wait. :)

thank you for making my day sucha wonderful one, HORRIGIBLEs. :D it was definitely a great ending for after the exams. :D hahahha, i love you lah.


moving on, it's my time. you never were a friend of mine. hurt at first, a little bit, but now i'm so over (you). HAHA, i miss those times we spent together. :( i want it all to happen again, boy. will it ever happen again? ...neh, i don't think so. you've forgotten about me anyway, why should i be hoping for something that's never gonna happen again?

WILL YOU TRY TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER?

MY LAST 2 PAPERS ARE TOMORROW!! i swear i can't wait for F&N to end tomorrow man, i've got an outing with the punani and maybe farah. HAHA, imma free woman tomorrow man. it's just physics and F&N (which i'm obviously gonna fail) and i can relax for the next 2 months. WHOO.

TODAY WAS JUST THE FUNNIEST DAY EVER. shall not elaborate on it though, wouldn't wanna do any damage now, would i? hahhaha, it's an inside joke. LALALA, i swear debs and i couldn't stop laughing man, it's friggin hilarious! HAHAHA, okay, i should just shut up, bathe and study now. g'night world. :)


stop trying so hard, it's never gonna work out between us. sorry boy. :)

IT'S ALMOST OVEEEEERR!

yeap, in the midst of MYEs now, so i haven't had much time to blog. cos y'know, there wasn't much time before SYF so now that SYF's over, i had to start mugging like shytes. BUT, unfortunately, it isn't coming along very well. been burning the midnight oil so i end up waking up with heavy eye-bags the next day before a paper. :\ it's hard man, but i'm coping i guess.

my exam papers haven't been nice to me. no matter how much i study, i just end up forgetting everything the next day. so far, i think SS and geog were the only easy papers for me man. bio, maths and accounts are a goner. MT has never been nice to me, although i think this time 'round, i found it a teeny weeny little easier. haha, i love having MT exams man. it's a secret betwween nina and i. ;) HAHAHA, damn funny man, i swear. oh well, another 2 more papers and i'll be a free woman man. HOHO, WEDNESDAY! :)

i've got tons of plans for after my papers man. suntanning, shopping, jogging, swimming, RAAH. hahaha, too many laaaah. lalala, lizee's gonna get MYEs over and done with man, PERSISTENCE IS THE KEY. :D

i miss your phone calls, i miss your presence here with me, i miss hearing your voice, i miss seeing you. i'm missing everything about you, except for the part where you break m,y heart. :D perdon me, i've gone a little kuku. it's the exams stress. HAHAHA.