LIZEE BLOGGED @2:06 PM;

i slacked the whole of yesterday, only did a couple of papers before giving up. wasn't in the right state of mind man, sighs. i still had the cheek to go out for lunch with Debbie at United Square man. and what'd we do after that? we went to Toys'R'Us to play with the different toys there cos we didn't wanna go home yet. gotta upload the videos i took man, haha, but what a way to spend time before my paper huh. only got home at 4.30, after which i went on the com to look for songs all the way till 7? did about 2 papers after that.

ended up going down to church after session, partly cos i needed to tell Debbie something after i got a phone call from someone random. :D she got pissed off after that man, not like she's the only one but yeah, we're currently pissed off sisters. i mean, even if she didn't like him (which is true, she DOESN'T like him), what makes you so sure he'd be yours? he's already found his own sweetheart (at least i think so), so why bother going through all that trouble of trying to win him? and wth, why d'you have to know whether i'm attached? not like as if you should be bothered about it. sheesh, the kind of people i meet in school these days. sighs.

anyway, as i was saying, waited for Jeremy to finish packing up before heading to Macs. talked to Cally while waiting for Jeremy, i swear Cally's an idiot, hahhaa. wonder how many idiots i'm gonna meet in life. oh, and i saw another idiot before that - Ryan Po. :D haven't seen him for quite awhile, oh well. stayed at Macs till about 11pm before heading back home with the siblings. so after i had a shower and stuff, Fran called to confirm what time we're meeting and stuff, she's such a clown, always cracking me up anytime, anywhere. :D Fatty Pan called after that, had my usual complaining session, hahaha. but there she was, coming up with the most stupid solutions to my problems. typical her. :D

i was getting drowsy halfway, wanted to get off the phone, but nooo, some idiot didn't wanna let me sleep, she wanted me to entertain her instead. hahaha. i had to entertain 3 people last night man, one of them being Jervis Kang. he's retarded lah, really. my eyes were gonna close already so i decided to head to bed. was supposed to meet Fran for math lessons this morning, but the both of us ended up waking up late, hahaha. when she called me this morning, it was hilarious man. :D i love her to bits laaaaah.

today should be a slightly more productive day for math. Jeremy gave me ACSI and Maris Stella papers to do. :\ sigh sigh sigh, back to work, girl!

LIZEE BLOGGED @12:52 PM;

i just realised i haven't been to school or been out of the house for the past 3 days, starting to miss those goondoos in school. yesterday was an exception though, stupid TW made me walk with him all the way to TP. WHY? he came all the way from school to my place just to bring Green Tea for me. such an asshole right, told him to go home to study but noooo, was being his usual stubborn self. OH WELL, i enjoyed the Green Tea though. :D

oh, and i've got a new tagboard cos something happened to my previous one. :\ was trying to delete some tags then POOF! everything went bonkers. blargh, all TW's fault, disturbing me over the phone while i was doing it, lost concentration, HAHA. ah, and my math is starting to look up a little bit, except for the fact that i've got so many careless mistakes. sighs, if i didn't get any careless mistakes, i'd be getting A1. @#$*! nvm lizee, nvm. WORK ON IT!

and to all my darlings who tagged the previous board, thanks for everything (except TW who posted something irrelevant :D). so now, i'm ready for another Math Marathon. 3 MORE DAYS!! someboddaye shoot me.

LIZEE BLOGGED @12:51 PM;

right, i'm not getting anywhere with my math papers. i've done easily 9 math papers, but noooo, i still can't get the marks i want. :\ blargh, on wednesday morning, i did math papers from 12.30am all the way till 7am man. took a 45min break to watch my Man Utd match, 4-2 yo! but too bad i missed all the goals, only saw the penalty Ronaldo scored in the second half, dang it. oh well, continued doing math papers till 7 before i finally gave up and fell asleep on my dad's bed. woke up at 11am, cleaned up and all that, then started work again at 2pm.

my mom's afraid to let me stay at home on my own. before she left for work today, she asked, "are you sure you'll be all right at home alone? you look like you're down in the dumps." i guess things are looking up to me at home, still peeved with Josh though. sighs, i think i'm under stress and plenty of pressure. i've lost 2kilos, even thought i've been eating like a pig the past few days man. i can't sleep properly cos everytime i close my eyes, i can picture me failing my math paper. my eye bags look hideous after the lack of sleep. sigh sigh sigh. balls lah, i'm shit scared. i don't want next week to come, i don't want tomorrow to come either. it's Doomsday. :\

LIZEE BLOGGED @2:06 PM;

YOU SUCK, LIZEE

i hate myself, i hate that bloody teacher who spoilt my day, i hate everything that's happening at home, i hate life right now. period. i've let them down, everyone's prolly disappointed with me cos i've not performed up to expectations. why is it i always get myself into shit like this? to be honest, i was expecting this to happen, but that son-of-a-bitch teacher had to tell me today. my day was going swell, right till after recess. she had to tell me today, of all days, TODAY. @$#%$!^&(! this is prolly one of the worst days i've had in my entire life. fuck lah, i deserved it anyway. sighs.

Josh is being an asshole, i swear. i mean, wtf was he doing, going through my personal stuff?! urgh, so i'm obviously being an ass towards him as well, and mom doesn't really give a shit as to whether he went through my personal stuff or not. :\ AAAH, I HATE EVERYTHING AT HOME!! i don't get any fucking privacy at home, no one seems to give a shit about anything, all i experience at home is either getting nagged at or end up screaming at someone. how do i concentrate for Os this way? it's on Monday and i'm not fucking prepared for it. not only that, there's that other thing i needa prepare for. i swear my day's been ruined. i stormed outta the house and headed to TW's place after i found out from Debbie about what Josh had done.

nearly cried on my way there cos of all the shit that happened today, it's too much to handle all at once man. by the time i got to TW's place, it was 8.40pm? so yeah, he was more or less the only asshole who made me laugh for awhile after the ****ed up news i received today. oh, and Yuva too. she and her 7th floor guy, i swear the two of them are retarded.

anyway, at least i managed to enjoy the weekend with my lovely people. 7km walk in the morning was rather fun, but hell it was tiring. went to Nina's place after that with Jade and Fran. train ride there was ridiculously funny, shan't elaborate on that. sighs, i gotta go study now. screw the exams..

LIZEE BLOGGED @12:04 AM;

yesterday was %&*(@#, today's results were even more &^@#! up, i'm totally screwed man. so much for thinking i'd be doing better for EOYs. RAAH, i'm upset, i'm angry, i'm pissed off, i'm frustrated, i'm on the verge of wanting to murder myself man. balls, i studied so ****ing hard and this is what i get. pfft, annoying, annoying, annoying.

but nvm, my outing with Jade, Fran, Cheryn and Kenneth just made my day. went to Serangoon Gardens to "visit" Yuva today, bought fries and nachos just to give her some face. made her serve everything to us man, was pretty hilarious. off to Chomp Chomps after that for dinner. Fran was being an idiot (once again, what else is new :D) with her usual lame comments. met Christabel after dinner cos something happened at home. btw, cheer up yeah, bel! i'm sure things will look up to you at home. so, we ended up going back to Cartel to meet her, talked for awhile then headed to the bus stop for TP.

took a train down to Novena cos Cheryn wanted to get her Kelly Poon CD fro Sinyee. journey there was awesome with those clowns. i swear we all got super high, doing stupid things like dancing in the middle of no where and holding hands while skipping. i love them all. (: cos they actually made me forget about the sucky results i recieved. sigh sigh sigh. and yesterday was even worse, cried the whole night cos something happened between Mom and i. :\ what else is new.

met TW after dinner with Debs. as usual, he made me wait.. 40 minutes to be exact. that bloody idiot made me cry when we were at the playground. how embarrassing, i swear. thank God it was dark man. oh, and Eugene, you're never gonna squeeze it outta me. takes a lot of patience to get something out from my mouth. happy trying!

LIZEE BLOGGED @11:12 PM;

well well well, past few days have been so-so. Daddy got me a new phone along with a new plan, SO.. PLEASE TAKE NOTE THAT I'VE CHANGED MY NUMBER! :D if you want it, you gotta ask moi personally. so troublesome man, i think this is the third time i've changed my number, but oh well. hahaha, i finally got a new phone though, after 853219782820 years of using that lousy Nokia one, heh.

school was a bore today. only checked English, MT, Accounts and Geog today. managed to get my A for english yo! :D i nearly passed MT (y'all should be proud of me man, hahaha), Accounts was craaaap (sorry cool Nerd, didn't perform up to standard :D) and Geog was a slight improvement from MYEs. and in between all that, we were free to do anything. SO, Cheryn, Yuva and I started talking about stuff that really got me cracked up. Stupid Eugene started miss calling me in class, for what, God knows. hahaha, those two baboons are idiots lah. next time i see them, they're gonna get their slaps from me. (:

and what's that Eug? TW= Luc's confi name? HAHAHA, NOT! for me to know, for you not to find out. (: haha, they drive me insane, really.

LIZEE BLOGGED @6:02 PM;

i'm currently in love with Elliott Yamin's songs, hahaha. and oh my gosh, Resident Evil: Extinction is such an awesome show! went to AMK Hub to meet Eugene and TW. stupid TW was being an idiot, told him not to pay for my ticket but noooo, was being stubborn. hahaha, thanks though. (: and i found something quite amusing in the cinema, hahaha. when we first got in, we were all sitting straight. then as the show continued and stuff, we slowly sank in our seats. :D funny shit man, hahaha.

headed to Simei after the movie cos Eugene and TW had tuition there. took a 22 from the interchange, and hell, it was a friggin long journey. those 2 idiots were really being assholes in the bus, started taking unglam shots of me. managed to delete some though, muahaha. continued with my slapping/pulling the ears/smacking spree on the bus. oh how terrifying i can be, heh. but hey, they deserved it man. only Olivia and Joanna are allowed to take unglam pics of me cos they're my pigs. :D slept for a teeny weeny while on the bus, TW was being an even bigger idiot with his usual annoying ways. reached Tampines then switched to a train.

so blah blah, they had tuition, i walked around the mall, tuition ended, headed to the foodcourt for dinner cos some pigs were feeling really hungry. i was full cos of my Chocolate Cream Chip before that, but noooo, they made me eat something. so y'know what they did? they bought Fish&Chips, Chicken Chop and an extra plate of fries, and i had to finish half of one plate otherwise they'd get something else for me to finish on my own. real idiots man, hahaha, so it was like another free treat for the day. not that i wanted it though, haha.

off to Dhoby Ghaut after that to keep Eug company before meeting up with Kenji and MinYan(?) cos they were gonna watch another movie. crazy retards, all the time in the world to watch movies and they do it just before Os. sigh sigh sigh. walked around with them before they went into the cinema then TW and i headed back by MRT. something crazy happened there, stupid MRT train jerked halfway, don't know why man. everyone banged into each other, damn pain man, hahaha, think i stepped on someone's foot. :P anyhoo, alighted at TP and walked back home. Jon and Debbie were being irritating when i got back, hahaha. silly siblings of mine.

all in all, today was fun, company was great too. thanks for today guys, haha, from the free treats to the great company. :D more, more, more after your Os man! :P

LIZEE BLOGGED @10:15 PM;

today. was. FUN. spent the whole day with my favourite bunch of people - Mel, Sinyee & Peiting. went to cycle at Bishan Park first, played at the playground before returning the bikes, then headed to WOW! Noodles (never heard of that place before) for lunch, hahhaha. apparently, the noodles and congee there's supposed to be good. tried the noodles, wasn't too bad man, haha. walked around AMK Hub after that, bought some stuff. bumped into TW at the VCD shop, hahaha, stupid ah beng. walked around some more after that, then all 4 of us bought earrings which were of the same design, hahahha.

headed to Mel's place after that, but Peiting had to leave so it was just Sinyee, Mel and I left. waited for Fatty to come over before we started playing mahjong. :D then Fran came and she helped me win a game, hahaha. mahjong with those people can drive you mad. Fran came up with her stupid jokes again, Mel and I couldn't stop laughing. i was on the verge of crying cos i was laughing so hard, hahhaha. i think we played mahjong for like, 3hours? HAHA, never played so much mahjong in my life man. :D

left her place at 8, went home, watched a bit of tv, went on the com, had a conference with Mel and TW over the phone. hahhaha, i swear if i could, one can go mad while talking to them. last night's conference with Mel, TW and Olivia was even more hilarious. HAHAHA, shan't mention anything here though, less some people come after me. :D HAHA, it's been a long time since i had this much fun without people ruining my day. thanks for making today fun y'all. (: we needa have more outings like this after Os man.

LIZEE BLOGGED @10:33 PM;

it'll be all over tomorrow. just one last paper and i'll be free to do whatever i want, 'cept there's still Math to practice on, but what the hey, i've got about half a month to work on that. EOYs didn't go the way i wanted it to go, i screwed almost all my papers. F&N and Physics today were baaad. i spaced out during my paper, but i realised i knew the answers after i handed in my scripts. :\

stayed back with the Accounts buddies today. i'm definitely not prepared for my paper tomorrow man. Mrs Chow's gonna slaughter me cos i'm not gonna do well. raah, i'm going mad. oh, and thanks Cool Nerd, for helping me with Accounts today. don't know what i'd do without you and Ernesta man. am so thankful i've got you goondoos to entertain me during lessons, especially Accounts.

all right, i'm tired, i'm frustrated, i'm becoming paranoid, i'm sick of exams, i feel like pulling my hair out, and i'm still emo. what an exciting life i have.

LIZEE BLOGGED @6:15 PM;

LIZEE BLOGGED @12:19 PM;

my day was filled with fun and laughter, and it felt good while it lasted - going for Novena with Mel and Peiting, walking around to try and stall Peiting before surprising her at Bishan, studying at Macs with Ningxin, Mel and Fran, watching the Man Utd and the Wallabies matches, laughing with Daddy and Debs at all the stupid moves made during the matches. this was certainly one of the most fun-filled days i've had in quite a while. then all this excitement came to an end once i got on the com.

i fucking cried when i found out what had happened. i mean, why the fuck does this have to happen now. why is it that you're the cause of all my unhappiness. everything used to be so fine back then, issues popped up here and there, but i managed to get past them all, but one. this huge one that doesn't wanna leave me alone, it keeps haunting me, telling me to do something about it. what can i do?! am i not allowed to do things my own way? sure, my actions may have caused someone else pain, but i can't make everyone happy, can i?

i hate it whenever things like this happen during crucial periods in my life. i'm in the midst of EOYs and this bloody thing has to happen. why, why, WHY?

LIZEE BLOGGED @12:39 AM;

well, looks like my mom hit the wrong nerve just now. fuck lah. who lets a 14 year old teenage girl out till 9pm on a school day?! and what, she's studying in church? that's just pure bullshit, she hardly studies in church. she goes for mass to look at her eye candy, she "STUDIES" in church to accidentally bump into her eye candy, she can do all that at the age of 14 and NOT GET FUCKING GROUNDED EVEN WHEN SHE DOESN'T TELL YOU SHE'LL BE HOME LATE?! just.. whatever. i never got those kinda previleges when i was 14 lah, what kinda fucking crap is this.

this whole week's just been fuck lah. my papers were like crap, i fell sick right before my first paper, i haven't been sleeping well, i've been pissed, i can't friggin study for anything cos it doesn't wanna stay in my head. ^%$#@!, frustrating, frustrating, frustrating. i don't like it at home..

but oh well, on a brighter note, today we surprised Joanna cos it was her birthday. her face was nearly as red as her eyes man, crazy girl. went to KFC to makan after that, Fran and I were being idiots while eating. off to AMK Macs with Mel and Olivia after that to study. finished Fatty's F&N notes for her (well, more or less anyway), then stoned for almost the rest of the time.

i'm too lazy to blog anymore, not in the right state of mind to do so. pfft.

LIZEE BLOGGED @8:35 PM;

i'm currently feeling like crap. stupid headache and fever's back, that means i can't do any studying tonight and my EOYs are on wednesday. Ernesta's grandad's passed away, and she's panicking cos she's afraid she'll do badly for EOYs. i feel so sorry for that girl, talked to her for 2 hours at her grandad's wake with Sajivani. at this point in time, she's kinda fragile, but i'm pretty sure she'll pull through this difficult period. she's a strong girl, plus she's not nana. (:

met up with TW before that for lunch. made him wait 45mins cos i was late, heh. went to makan at the foodcourt then walked around for awhile. was on the verge of getting high after drinking my pearl milk tea. fortunately, he didn't have to tahan my nonsense cos i had to go off to meet Sajivani already. so i met up with her, then headed to Ernesta's block. didn't see a funeral wake there, so i called her and she said it was at her grandma's place in Toa Payoh. Sajivani said Ernesta told her it was at her block in Bishan, it was sooo humorous. 3 of us talked and talked and talked till 7pm. was having a bad migraine, must be cos i didn't get much sleep last night.

couldn't sleep last night at all. my gut feeling told me something was wrong, and viola, i find out today that Ernesta's grandad's passed on. oh well, gosh, i'm screwed for oral tomorrow. haven't prepared anything for the topics. blargh, somebodaye shoot me.

i've only one wish, and that is for everyone to just live happy lives. the whole world seems so down, frustrated. sighs, i can't wait for EOYs and Os to be over. i've got a movie treat from Jer, i owe him a meal, pizza dates with TW are waiting for me, freedom's calling out to me.

LIZEE BLOGGED @8:53 PM;