okay. i think i'm gonna shut this blog down. i may update once in awhile though. otherwise, i'm not gonna bother, too many painful memories.

WTF IS WRONG..

i suddenly feel like strangling/choking/cutting myself, anything's better than what i'm going through right now. she's being an ass who honestly doesn't give a shit at how she answers back at people, rude or not, she doesn't care; i don't know what to say about that thing anymore, i've given up trying; dance's being a bitch again, training everyday, until 7pm.

i mean, hey, it's not that i don't enjoy dance, i just don't want to have to take so many responsibilities. the minute something goes wrong, everyone looks for Liz. wrong info put on the board, all look for Liz. info not put on the board, everyone's looking for Liz again. don't get me wrong here, it's not that i don't want yall to come looking for me when something's wrong, i just can't stand HER cos she keeps nagging at me to do stuff for her. HELLO, what're the other exco members for. Liz can you do this, Liz can you do that, no Liz we've talked about this before. AAAAHHH. i can't take it anymore, i honestly can't.

then there're last minute items that Dance Ensemble has to perform, and I have to let the other dancers know last minute cos i received the information late. last minute practices, last minute changes to the item, urrrrgggghhh. it's not only that, i still have my own item to finish and i'm no where near finishing it any time soon. it's like, my whole life's gonna revolve around dance for the next 2 weeks. shouldn't i be excited? NO. cos i'm the one who has to get everyone organized, i'm the one who's gotta organize practices, i'm the one who's gotta do this and that. sigh.............

and her. gawd. i don't know what else to say about her. the way she answers, **** la, she ought to be slapped, i swear. it was alright for the last few weeks, till now. i get a bloody rude answer at the slightest thing i ask.
"where're you going with her?"
"...what's your problem la..."

speechless. yes. speechless. i don't like how life's going for me now. i really don't. results, school (esp F&N), dance stuff, i don't know what or how to tackle them anymore..