ever felt the need to look away at something, but can't turn away from it cos it keeps crawling back to you? that's exactly how i feel right now. don't know how to describe it. let's just say i'm really blank at the moment. things've happened. things i knew would happen. i keep wanting to pretend nothing's happened, but every time i try to, i think about it even more.

why you.

why me.

why them.

why not someone else.

since it's gonna be this way, then fine, i'll leave it be. i don't deserve you, you don't deserve me. period. i went through so much, only to find you acting that way. i don't know what to do, or how to react.

today's been blank. only highlight was going to the SPCA to look for a new kitty cat and spending time with the siblings. otherwise, i've been lazing around, even though it's a weekend. haven't been out the past few weekends, and to be honest, i couldn't care less anymore. might as well spend them with my entire family since we're all only together on weekends. yeah, makes sense.

i've given up with you. i don't wanna talk to you. i don't want to be associated with you anymore. you know why i'm so upset? no wait, i don't wanna tell you. i don't intend on telling you. you've somehow vanished in my eyes..

LIZEE BLOGGED @10:26 PM;

yes, well, i'm kinda bored now, and i need a break from all that homework and studying, aaaand there's nothing else to do online, so i just felt like updating. been kinda dead though, don't know who else reads all this anymore, aha.

Dance Night was awesome, despite the back injury and blah blah. sadly, that's the only picture i have to remember that night cos half the time i was helping dancers with their make-up or panicking to change in time for my next item. :\ sad, yes, very sad. oh well, at least the videos are up on youtube, so if yall wanna check it out, just search for "IJ Dance Night". still can't believe how i managed to do all my items with that screwed up back man. WHOOO. can't wait for the next Dance Night.

anyhoo, i feel the urge to spit something unpleasant out, but it wouldn't be very nice now, would it. whatever it is, i just think you're a pathetic thing. (: hopeless. snobbish. bitchy. yes, totally describes you. ahahaha.

raah, i'm done ranting, isn't that a record! i'm off to study now, hahaha. i've missed being single, look at what it's done to me. :D

i don't even know what i'm saying, aha, study study study time!

LIZEE BLOGGED @11:01 PM;