Tuesday, June 30, 2009
OH WHAT A LIFE
this is one of those random posts when i just feel like typing my recent happenings away. when i've got nothing else better to do, of course.
sentosa and marina barrage was TOTALLY fun with the wondernooful colleagues. we should have more outings. missing yall like k-ra-zy. and thank you to my kor kors for providing the awesome company at barrage. needed it badly. transformers movie marathon and bicycling soon pleeeeeease.
why do these unhappy things happen between us. we've had much brighter and sunnier days. wonder what happened to those. sigh. things happen for a reason, don't they.
Sunday, June 21, 2009
STUPID
Liz's weekend has been a crappy one and doesn't know what is gonna make it better. how rare is it that i actually post something on this blog? considering the last time i did so was ages ago.. yeah it's been long. the only reason why i'm doing so now is cos i've got nothing planned for the day and i really don't know what to do to kill time.
on a brighter note, my last few weeks have been relatively fun. there was Ruhui's birthday chalet, several outings with the colleagues, and funny stuff happening in the office. plus there's sentosa this saturday, that should prolly keep me alive for the week cos i'm looking forward to it.
last week of work before i say bye bye to my working life and hello to school life. i'm gonna miss all the company in the office. it's been fun working with them. not your usual everyday office job. i've got about 3 weeks from today to get back into my flexible self before placement classes on the 13th of july. ballet or modern? would love to do modern but Nicole says i'd prefer doing ballet in year 1. guess we'll have to see why when placement classes take place.
i miss IJ Dance. i miss the juniors. i miss dancing. and i miss my IJ classmates. WHEN ARE WE MEETING UP GUYYYYYYS. it's been ages since i last saw everyone.
how much more complicating can things get when they're already SUPER complicating? i don't know what to do anymore. maybe this wasn't supposed to happen..
Sunday, May 03, 2009
DEAD AND GONE
i'm at a lost of words for you.
i don't know what to say.
i don't know what to do.
i don't know anything anymore.
i thought everything between us was open.
i thought there was no hiding things between us.
i thought we could talk about anything under the sun - good or bad.
i thought we could trust each other with whatever things we had to say.
it hurts when you keep things from me,
even worse when i find out about it.
it hurts when you want to be left alone when i thought i was supposed to be there for you.
it hurts me seeing you upset, but you're not willing to share what's bothering you.
yes, i know i'm to be blamed for all this as well.
it's my fault for not being patient.
it's my fault for always being the bitch.
it's my fault for whatever arguments we have.
basically, it's my fault most of the time.
so, if you don't want to talk to me, i can fully understand why. take your time with everything, even with us. don't want to go any further. tell me. don't hide things from me anymore.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
HATE THIS PART RIGHT HERE
i've wasted my entire morning on the com, watching videos, downloading music and using facebook. it's scary to think how i didn't even wanna sign up for facebook, but visit that page everyday now. raah. no good. i'm wasting my life away at home. seriously. there's nothing to do.
first day off work for the month and i'm already sick. really bad sore throat and a drippy nose that doesn't wanna turn off its faucet. i've used like three quarters of the tissue box already. grr. last night was stupid webcam-ing with Andrew. "looks like a bubble tea pearl." i'll never see bubble tea pearls the same way ever again. aha.
tomorrow's gonna be spent at Yuva's house, talking about PEOPLE. (: may be watching a movie with Andrew after that, not sure yet though. X-men's not exactly my thang. but since i owe him for the last 3 years.............. hahaha. so much to catch up on.
things seem so different now. i think it's me, not you, so don't worry. i just need time to get over it. i hope.
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
LONG-TERM LEAVE
today was my last day in the office. well it's not officially my last day, it's sort of a long-term leave cos i gotta babysit josh since there's no one home for him. :\ i'll be working again for the month of June, then Zhi Hao, Yvonne and i (and maybe Joy, if she's planning on staying till then) will work all the way till end June before saying bye bye to the oldies in the office. heh.
lunch was somewhat weird today. it was only Zhi Hao, Yvonne, Wenming and myself. boss had fed Joy so she didn't join us for lunch. i did most of the talking, couldn't stand the awkward silence. wanted to take more picturessssss but everyone looked dead so i didn't bother. :\ LJS for lunch, the first fast food meal i've had since starting work. headed off to Sheng Siong after that to buy tidbits.
got back to the office, still had half an hour of lunch break, but no one really cared, so they went back to doing their work while Zhi Hao and i munched on our munchies. then he had to leave cos of some SMU briefing, so bye bye to him for the next month. Joy got kicked outta her office cos boss was having a meeting, so she came to my cubicle and started complaning that Zhi Hao and i were treating her like a dustbin, gave her the munchies we couldn't finish. hahaha.
boss let us off at 5pm today, plus he's giving us paid leave tomorrow. what a way to spend my last day in the office, hahaha. headed to town after that with Joy cos she wanted to look for a cardi. she bought jap ice-cream for me cos she didn't know if she was still gonna see me in the office when i went back. such a sweetie. hahaha. went to shop around Wisma and Taka before she went to meet her mummaye for some more shopping.
if it's anything that i'm gonna miss not being in the office, it's the company. guess the people there weren't as bad as i thought they'd be. (:
oh shit. i just remembered i left my bottle in the cupboard. ARGH! it's gonna rot in there for a month till i get back. great.
Monday, April 27, 2009
LOST
people i once called friends, now have their own friends and have forgotten their old ones (or at least that's how they feel - forgotten). people i used to dislike or hate, i've made peace with them.
i thought my life was heading in the right direction after a long while. i got my old friends back, made new ones, but lost my close ones. everyone's began life in tertiary institutions, making new friends, some even forgetting the ones they had in the past. sure, i've got a couple who've stuck with me through and through, but the ones i thought i could never forget, the ones whom i thought i'd be able to depend on even after separating, have obviously failed me.
it hurts to see them move on like they haven't forgotten anything, or anyone for that matter of fact. things change, i know. but for something this drastic to take a change in turn, it's hard to adapt.
thankfully, i've still got friends who mean more than the world to me. if it weren't for them, i'd be the biggest loser on this planet. :\
SIGH, i don't know why i'm so upset this evening. maybe it's cos my plans on friday got cancelled. oh well. Yuva's gonna have to keep me company the whole of stupid friday. I CAN'T WAIT FOR SCHOOL TO START.
Sunday, April 19, 2009
MAD WORLD
righteo. my weeks have been somewhat boring, revolving around work and shopping. i spent $300 on 2 dresses, 4 tops, 2 pairs of pants, 1 skirt, a pair of shoes and a Dorothy Perkins bag. someone stop me from spending whatever i earn man.
and i hate to admit it, but work's not as fun without Lu and Dexter cos i can't slack and go to the last cubicle to play games, aha. plus there's no internet on my com, so that's a bummer. can't wait till next week - last week of work. gotta get myself into shape before school starts.
everyone else starts school tomorrow, yet another bummer. i've got another 3 months before I start. :\ at least Yuva ends at 12 on mondays, can look forward to shopping trips with her.
btw, did i mention about IJ Dance Ensemble's GOLD WITH HONOURS for this year's SYF? yesss, i was there to witness it all. from early in the morning with the dancers, helping with make up, till the trip to UCC, to seeing them perform on stage. couldn't be any happier with the end result. they deserved it. (: i'm soooo proud of them, gaah, makes me miss my days in IJ Dance even more.
aiight i've got another day at work tomorrow. lunch date with my woman. (: g'night yall.
i don't blame you for whatever you've done, just don't do it again. today's been emotional, but i'll get over it. you should too. (:
